To the Owner of this Soul

You could never hold me down!
you could say whatever
you want
still I'll rise

you could look at me
with hatred
still I'll rise

you could pretend like
I am invisible
still I'll rise

you don't matter
you don't define me
you are a fool and,
guess what I am not.

you could discourage me all you want
still I won't fall for your tricks anymore
Just stop trying to get in my head
it won't work this time
or anytime

I am here and that's the end of that
deal with your issues
because guess what?
I am not the problem you are

Your negativity won't damage me anymore
I am tired of your games
stop playing
no one is watching/playing/or caring
anymore

stop trying to get in my head
just stop
you mean nothing
never again
stop playing
stop pretending
stop it all
don't you get it?

you are nothing to me
you are a stranger
playing by yourself with invented games
never will you succeed
in your games
atleast not with me
nomore

I am tired of your faces
different faces at different times
no consistency
get a peaceful life
that's the only cure for
your madness

Don't look at me as the
cause for your madness
you created this
look in the mirror
don't you see it?

I am done
done
done
done
with your games

Have I said enough?

The Women Who Broke all the Rules-How the choices of a generation changed our lives.

It's a pretty awesome book. It talks about the social change that began in America in the late 1960's and how powerful and strong women in that time needed to be to redefine the roles that were placed on them. The generation born between 1945 and 1955 changed the lives of American women for years to come. They redefined the expectations about education, marriage, child bearing, and careers, when all they saw around them were of women going to college, getting married, and having a family.

Susan B. Evans, Ed. D
Joan P. Avis, Ph.D


1960's to 2005-has views changed this much among women?

Old rule: You must conform in order to get approval
New truth: You can't lead your life for external approval. Seek your own blessings.

Old rule: you own it to your parents to lead a normal life
New truth: you own it to yourself to live an exceptional life

Old rule: A man defines a woman's identity
New truth: Only you can define your self-worth

Old rule: marry a doctor, don't be one
New truth: You are capable of having any career you want

Old rule: Girls can't play with the big boys
New truth: When the rules say you can't play, change the rules

Old rule: Be greatful for what you have
New truth: Keep reaching for the brass ring

Old rule: Accept what you can't change
New truth: Change what you can't accept

Old rule: Wait for the prince

New truth: If the prince doesn't show up, go door to door

Powerful book- greatful for all the opportunities that are out here and these women had the courage to step into a world that was unknown to them. They didn't have anyone to look up to, they made their own rules and never quit.

"As a result of their efforts, women today are truly free to become fully self-actualized persons, without the constraints of gender." (5)

A truth seeker visits a wise guru who lives in a cave at the top of a mountain and asks "what is the secret of life?" The guru says, "good judgment." She thinks about that and says "how does one get good judgment?" The guru says "Through experience." The seeker asks, "how does one get experience?" The guru says, "Bad judgment."

-Carolyn Kizer, poet

The pathways were so slippery that I couldn't walk too far into this area today.

The wood lake nature center is 150 acre. There are several miles of walking paths and in the winter the paths are used to cross-country ski trails.

This is my favorite area around my city.

The Power of Now!

I used to have the hardest time with the concept of money few years back when I first got a job! My parents would say "SAVE, WORK HARD, SAVE." But I didn't want to be working hard at 17 to SAVE....isn't that what the next forty years are for...and if someone asked what did you do at 17 I didn't want to say I SAVED MONEY.! My parents would buy me whatever Ineeded but I always felt like they worked too hard just to save. So filled with pocket full of dollars I BOUGHT BOUGHT BOUGHT. But sooner than later material things didn't really give me any happiness for too long. So I went back to square one "Why are people crazy about money and what is it I wanted to do with my money?" But back of my mind I knew I can't just BUY BUY BUY but instead I needed to SAVE AND BUY.

My uncertainty about money continued till'..........

I came across this very simple quote. And it totally changed my life.

"The whole reason for generating money is to buy experiences."

WOW! Experiences...Not STUFF. Just one word and everything is seen differently.

"Wherever you are, be there totally. If you find your here and now intolerable and it makes you unhappy you have three options: remove yourself from the situation, change it, or accept it totally. If you want to take responsibility for your life, you must choose on of those three options, and must choose now. Then accept this consequences. No excuses, No negativity."

"All that you ever have to deal with, cope with, in real life--as opposed to imaginary mind projections--is this moment. Ask yourself what problem you have right now, not next year, tomorrow or five years from now. What is wrong with the moment? You can always cope with the now, but never with the future---nor do you have to. Answer, strength, right action or the resource will be there when you need it, not before or after."

These two quotes and the money quote from the book:

• "THE POWER OF NOW - A GUDE TO SPIRITUAL ENLIGHTENMENT -Eckhart Tolle
  

Just a little side note: Whatever you do -- If you need to get this book for some reason--don't ever buy this author on a video. You could have hundred little 5 year olds in a room and I guarantee you that if you put the video of him talking they would all be asleep!

good book...read it...don't WATCH IT.

Blog This

This blog is so ridiculously..............................................

(I don't even know where to begin)

THINGS I HATE ABOUT MY FLATMATE!

Speaking of bizzare things...Some delivery guy came into work today. I had to call the employee who is expecting the package to come down to sign for it. So I informed the employee..and tried to make some small conversation (my famous line which I say about 20 times a day to strangers at work.).........."IS IT COLD OUT THERE"....and I always expect them to say something like "not bad for Minnesota". So this guy was kinda uncomfortable..I guess he doesn't make small conversations..but he kept on staring at my photo id badge. I was kinda annoyed when it continued for few more minutes.... And then I finally said "is there something wrong with my badge."

He said "well, it doesn't do you justice...Is always like that....All the ID badges make the people look worse never better".....(I thought that was reasonable since not many people look good on picture id's since they have to stare into the camera right in your face) But the thing is..........he said "have you also noticed how murders on T.V. look far worse as well.....I mean if you go to jail and look at them .. they ain't that bad looking.......but the pictures they put on t.v. is horrible"..........I didn't know what to say...so I kept nodding my head..and then finally the employee came to sign for the package...and still the guy kept mumbling about murders.

...I didn't know what to think... I just had to have a conversation with some guy about how there is something common with me and murders...my picture ID

Friend from school, who is a writer for the school paper, asked if he can get together with my family to write about Sri Lanka and the Tsunami. I was trying to give him some background and it occured to me how little I know about Sri Lanka. I thought I knew at least general knowledge about the country but NO! My dad could go on and on about it...thank god for him!

To Thailand With Love...

Hitch

"In this romantic comedy, Will Smith plays Alex 'Hitch' Hitchins, a tactical dating adviser who specializes in first impressions (he orchestrates a client's first three dates) and has been secretly responsible for hundreds of New York City weddings. Eva Mendes co-stars as Sara, a gossip reporter for a daily tabloid who, after a chance meeting with Hitch, finds her professional life and personal life on a collision course. She makes Hitch re-evaluate his game and teaches him that love is not a feeling, it's an action."

I didn't want to go to this movie at first since I don't like Will Smith. I was close to trying to change my friend's choice...but I decided to give it a chance..And the movie turned out to be good! it was pretty funny!

A Prayer for the Stressed

I found this hanging at work. I thought it was funny! hahahhahahahahaha

Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I cannot accept,
and the wisdom to hide the bodies of those people I had to kill today because they pissed me off.

And also help me to be careful of the toes I step on today as they may be connected to the ass that I may have to kiss tomorrow.

Help me always give 100% at work...
12% on Monday
23% on Tuesday
40% on Wednesday
20% on Thursday
5% on Friday

And help me to remember when I am having a really bad day,
and it seems that people are trying to piss me off,
that it takes 42 muscles to frown and only 4 to extend my middle finger and tell them to bite me.

Amen.

02/14/05

oooooo beautiful! Is anyone getting sick of my snow pictures yet? Is really hard to capture what I am seening exactly on picture..but trying my best. enjoy:-) The state I live in has a lot of different seasons...winter, fall, spring, summer. So you'll be seening a lot of pictures of seasons!!!

it was raining yesterday night...and then when I woke up this morning....VOLA!!

my car

Had five exams the past week...Did well since this is the first exams of the semester and most material covered were review from years before. Learned: Exam days could be the most relaxing...but...you have to prepare for them! If you know what you need to know..then the entire day goes well.

is a nice feeling.

Hopefully this feeling lasts another 7 years...I'll be set :-)

7 years...more of school. It seems to me that working is harder than being in school..so why not!

someone finally wrote down everything i was feeling

Someone finally wrote down everything I was feeling:

Thanks to all my friends who sent me emails last year! It's so wonderful that you included me in your quest to inform! Because of all of you I stopped drinking Coca-Cola after you told me that it's good for removing toilet stains. I stopped going to the movies for fear of sitting on a needle infected with a disease. I smell awful, but thank goodness I stopped using deodorant because you said it causes cancer. I don't leave my car in any parking lot, even though I sometimes have to walk about seven blocks, because you said that someone might drug me with a perfume sample and then rob me. I also stopped answering the phone because you said that they will ask me to dial a stupid number and then I get a high phone bill with calls to Uganda, Singapore, Tokyo and maybe the Mars Rover. I stopped eating chicken because you told me they were nothing more than horrible mutant freaks with no eyes or feathers that are bred in a lab, so that KFC will have something to sell. When I go to parties, I don't drink anything - you said that someone would get me drunk and take my kidneys and leave me in a bathtub full of ice. However, the police are also after me because you said not to pull over as they could be fake policemen trying to kidnap me. I went bankrupt from the bounced checks that I wrote, in anticipation of the $15,000 that Microsoft and AOL were supposed to send me when I participated in their special e-mail program. It's weird, though, that my new free cell phone never arrived, and neither did the passes for my paid vacation to Disneyland. But I am positive that all this is because of the chain I broke or forgot to follow and I got a curse. OOPS! I ALMOST FORGOT, IMPORTANT NOTE: If you don't send this e-mail to at least 1200 people in the next ten seconds, a bird will crap on your shoulder tomorrow at 10AM. Here's to an even better informed 2005!

what people will do for......holdon why do people start stupid e-mails...to see if the rest of the world is stupid? attention?

earth folks

Some facts I thought were interesting came to me this week:

in 1800 there were 1 billion people on earth.
next 150 years the number grew to 3 billion
then in the next 40 years it doubled to 6 billion.

There are three paradigm surrounding the international community about population growth:

1. Thomas Malthus
severly reduce birth rate

2. Karl Marx
The number of people is not the problem but resources are unequally distributed

3. Science/technology
science technology will save the day by reproducing whatever resources run out.

Death rate is primarily responsible for increase in world population
Not increase in birth rate but people just ain't dying (don't get any ideas now :-)

Currently population is in the exponential growth phase (1.3%)

It'll take 53.4 years to get to 12 billion if things don't change

Largest city in the world.....Mexico City with 16 million people.