I called in sick to work yesterday. I was so proud that I had never called in sick for the past 2 1/2 years since I started this job. However, yesterday I was a little tired and needed to just relax at home. I had some plans in the morning and I wasn't too sure if I'll be too tired to go to work after getting those things done. So I just thought why not be safe and call in sick.
The relaxation turned into boredom only awhile later. I walked around the park and moved room to room trying to find something to do. I could get bored so easily.
I just couldn't relax at all.

hello?!? Tamil please....

The past week I been on the phone talking to various people about my dad's 401k distributions.

Its all very new to me. I had no idea what 401K was about...honestly I thought the government was rewarding us for working...keeping the economy going...free money! I know I am really clueless..these type of teachings should be a requirement in all universities!

A class on "various paper work for every step of your life." Something...anything!

Okay so I obviously wouldn't even know where to begin to ask the questions that would make my dad happy. So when I called his last employer I requested a Tamil translator...and we got someone on the phone with us in less than five minutes! This was so new to me!

My dad talked to a lady in Colombo. Every question my dad asked she would translate it in English to my dad's employer and then translate the answer in Tamil to my dad.

The thought that we are all so becoming globally connected within a few minutes boggles my mind! So cool!

Yeap!

"If you are a woman between the ages of 20 and 40 living anywhere on the globe, you are part of the most educated, professionally empowered, internationally empowered, international generation of women ever. It's an inspiring story in a world full of violence and insecurity---a generation of women poised to take the reins of global leadership like no other generation in history."

-paula Goldman, In Imagining Ourselves: Global Voices from a New Generation of Women.


This deserves a post of itself!

delicious!

Isn't this fabulous. My own pear tree in the backyard! Is just amazing what things will grow where! The more time I spent outdoors it makes me think if I want to live in a state that only has few months of summer. Nine pears so far on a small tree...only about 5 feet tall!

Who Me?!?! A Speeder!??! well yes...

I couldn't find a picture of an Asian police officer...


I was pulled over by an Asian police officer...I don't know why I just expected it would be a white guy...so I was surprised to see an Asian cop. I should of known that today there would be a lot of cops out there just waiting to catch some drunk drivers! Well, I was not a drunk rather a speeder. As I looked back and saw the lights flashing...my thought was "Wow, finally it is happening to me...after all these years of not getting pulled over...the day has finally arrived." So police officer approached my vehicle.


Asian cop with sunglasses:
He asked if I knew why he pulled me over....


me (confused):
hmmmmm....I don't know.......Officer....why did you?


Asian cop with sunglasses:


He stated that on a 40 mph road I was going 53 and my speed was climbing..


Me (surprised):
really.....wow........missed my exit to work because of construction.......then I took a left when I should have taken a right.....I am late for work.......I don't know.....I am late for work....its so hot....only worked at this location just for a month...I am still getting used to this area.....hmmmmmm...


He left to check my information out.
Since I never been pulled over before he just gave me a warning...and told me to watch my speed.


As I was driving away I wondered if I should have asked him if he was Korean and watched any Korean dramas. But I think that would have been a little inappropriate...its not like we were talking about coolest places to hang out, movies we liked to watch, summer plans....I mean this dude was pretty serious and had a gun plus lots of other dangerous and hurtful things to spray/hit me with.

The Devil Wears Prada!

The Devil Wears Prada


So I am the first one to admit that this script has been done a million times...A recent college graduate woman, played by Anne Hathaway, moves to New York city to save the world as a journalist. Things don't go as she planned when she has to settle for a job at none other than a fashion magazine...ahhhhhhhh (horror screams...I wouldn't mind that job). Meryl Streep plays her devil of a boss and she does a fantastic performance! I loved all the little jokes that are just naturally set in the movie and scenes of New York City were really nice!

I feel like sharing...

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Depending on the situation I can develop patience like nobody’s business! If I have something that needs to be done…I could convince myself that I could work through whatever obstacles that comes my way…and almost always get whatever I need done. I could stop the frustration that begins to build and become completely clam and focused. This unfortunately only happens once in a while…but when it does it is such a great feeling!


I have the ability to be calm when others are not. When an environment becomes hectic I could actually stop reacting to that and react in a way that is opposite of that environment.


I love paper items! I am obsessed actually! I love journals, scrapbooks, stationeries, letters, notebooks…everything and anything that oozes creativity. I mean sure someone could have a notebook and not do anything about it. But a blank notebook---is a template to make it into whatever you want. I have so many stationeries in boxes that I think I could start a store myself. I am trying to use all of my old papers so I could start buying new ones.


Lately, I like to be around people and not talk so much. I just don’t want to make small talks if I don’t have to. I rather be more observant and take in the surrounding. Before however I was so involved in making everyone comfortable and I thought small talks eases the surrounding but now “no, thanks.” I don’t want to try so hard at having conversations. It should come naturally. This is not being stuck-up.


If I ever had a full weekend off without any plans…this hasn’t happened in the past 2+ years. If I come to a position where I have consecutive weekends off…consecutive…I am going to watch movies all weekend. Stay in bed all weekend and watch movies!


(Isn't the flower beautiful?! From my front yard!)

moth

My sister recently started a job in a lab where she and her coworkers work with a lot of moths. Her company is responsible for producing the best moth eggs and selling them around the country. Who knew…huh?!? Every night however she has been having these terrible nightmares! She dreams that her bed, face, her entire body is surrounded by moths…as she describes “suffocating me.” She jumps out of bed every night as she throws her comforter on the floor. She was telling her coworkers about her nightmares other day while they laughed and sympathized with her situation.


One of her coworker mentioned that her nightmares could be worse! He told her that their lab used to employee a woman who also had nightmares. Not only did she dream that moths were all over her but they had her in a cage and were doing the experiments on her that she was doing to them everyday. *Used to employee her* every important!


Yikes!?


I have no idea how that dream could be like? But I’ll be completely scared.

soccer!

Loved watching the world cup soccer game today!
I didn’t even know about the world cup until couple of people mentioned it in class and at work!
Now I am hooked!
The game today was between Argentina and Mexico.
And Argentina won!
It was fantastic to watch!
Each team scored one point the first ten minutes of the game and after a long time Argentina scored in overtime!
Yea!
I want to participate in more sports and also go watch teams play!

I went to the post office today because I needed to sent a package. With this package I wanted to put stamps on it instead of just a ticket stating what the price will be. The price of the package turned out to be $5.15 so I bought a few sheets of 37 cents stamps and stepped to a counter to place 15 or so stamps on my package. I was in my own little world figuring out the best way to arrange all these stamps on my package when someone took hold of my shoulders. Not only hold my shoulders but shook me really hard. The few seconds this lasted I thought "Wow, whoever that is must be suprised to see me." I turned around and saw a face I never saw before. Then I thouhgt maybe I know this man so I said this "ohhhhh...HI there! (giving the impression that I knew him.....when I completely didn't) Well he looked indian so I thought maybe I may have met him before. I am really bad with remembering faces anyways. This man looked at me and said "Ohh I thought you were my niece" at that time I finally figured out that I had no idea who this man was so I said "ohhh...it's okay." As I went back in line I couldn't look at this man in the face because I was still in a little shock. He kept apologizing and I said that was okay. "He kept saying your behind looks just like my niece" ..okay...



Then I saw someone from high school. It was intersting meet because I had no idea what her name was and she didn't remember mine either. At first I thought her name was destiny but her name was actually Gifted. How could I forget a name like that? It was strange event though. I mean in high school it seemed that the school was the whole world yet after four years I can't even remember a person I went to school with for YEARS. When she asked for my name I said it the way it should be pronounced with utmost confidence..it seemed to me that she didn't even recognize my name. My name has been pronounced so many different ways and I never corrected it until only a few years ago. Now I don't really give a chance for people to pronounce my name however way it suits them. No excuses anymore! I learned the English language to the best of my ability atleast you could say my name to the best of your ability.



Then I saw a teacher from high school...I never took a high school class with her..so I didn't say anything.



In conclusion, if you want to catch up on your old life...maybe consider going to the post office. Its a great hangout...let's get the party started at the post office?!?!


I can't relax at all. I think its a Sri Lankan thing. I was talking to another Sri Lankan and he mentioned the same thing...how his mom can't even sit down for one minute without finding something to do. I don't blame Sri Lanka...but maybe my parents.

I started a new journal on my birthday. I have tons of little notes, papers, greeting cards, pictures...that are all over my room (tucked between books, under my bed, in shoe boxes) so I got a book to just tape everything in it. Aside from these little collections so far the theme I been writing has been "I want (-----) in life." After filling pages of this book already...I started to wonder if this is healthy. I mean should I be greatful for what I have than always wanting something more?
But then I decided to ignore this thought...because I don't think there is anything wrong with putting down ideas, wishes, and working on them. I am greatful for all I have. But there is more to see, do, be in this life and I want it.

Nacho Libre ---Funny movie! I went to the 10 A.M. show which was really nice! I'll do that again. There were only few people in the theater and had the full afternoon to do other stuff.

My Birthday...!!!

Permanence. Perseverance and persistence in spite of all obstaclies, discouragemnets, and impossibilities: it is this, that in all things distinguishes the strong soul from the weak.
-Thomas Carlyle
The keen spirit seizes the prompt occasion makes the thought start into instant action, and at once plans and performs, resolves and executes.
-Hannah Moore


Long day...I had classes all morning.
Both of my parents were home so for my birthday they made crab curry...which was SO GOOD!
That was my request.
Walked around the neighborhood for one hour...so relaxing...
Had ice cream cake..I think I might appreciate it more tomorrow.
I was so happy that my professor announced that we were only having a hour of lecture....and not two


Always bear in mind that your own resolution to succeed is more important than any other one thing.
-abraham Lincoln
Often the difference between a successful person and a failure is not one has better abilities or ideas, but the courage that one has to bet on one's ideas, to take a calculated risk--and to act.
-Maxwell Maltz

I got this beautiful necklace recently. I wanted something that representated New York...I kinda regretted that I didn't get something like this in New York...but I did get few other pieces in Little Italy from this 80 year old lady one late night.


It was so nice to come home last night...and not have to set the alarm for this morning. I reached for my cell phone to set the alarm...then I thought "WHY! I really don't need to..."

So that's what I did...slept half of the day.

WINDFALL

I have a strong hatred for the show that's going be premiering soon….WINDFALL! Haven't watched one episode yet but I just can't stand the promotion for that show. …20 friends…364 millions dollars…..the deceptions, the passion, bluh bluh bluh!! Damn show, Damn NBC, Damn Power ball!!

(Annoying dude #1) "…I am going to go buy a football team…can I pick up something for you…?". (yes…dude..you could do something for me…go to hell!!!).

(Annoying dude #2 )"…if your wildest dream came true…will I be in it?" (NO!...and "ohh yea…please go away")

(Annoying woman #1) "life isn't fair…thank god…..(something like this)… (I hate her)" Just the whole show gets on my nerve.

I am so tired.
I am putting in too many hours this summer at work.
Feel so tired (I said that already…)
I need a vacation!


I watched The Break-up a few days ago and it was good.
All I was thinking was “Jennifer Aniston better not disappoint me again” and she didn’t.
It was an enjoyable night at the movies.


What’s up with Al Gore? Every time I see that guy on CNN he looks like an actor playing the role of a politician. I don’t know!

Sunshine & rain, monkeys getting married?

Few weeks ago it was a bright, sunny day and I was sitting in my car with all the windows open and naturally enjoying the day. All of a sudden it started to rain..and the first thought that came to mind was "Monkies are getting married today." I remember when I was young that someone told me this in Sri Lanka and I never forgotten this little saying. But I honestly had no idea what it meant or where this saying came from. For a long time I thought it was a Sri Lankan saying but that doesn't seem like the case. I googled it and found this site.


[Q] From Gary Williams: “I wonder if you can shed some light on the phrase a monkey’s wedding? When I was a child growing up in South Africa, my mother would use the saying when we had rain and sunshine at the same time. My wife tells me that she knows the saying from her family, which is mainly of Irish blood.”

[A] It’s certainly a well-known South African expression. A related Afrikaans word, jakkalstrou, jackals wedding, also exists. The South African English version is the direct equivalent (what linguists call a loan translation) of the Zulu umshado wezinkawu, a wedding for monkeys.

Back in 1998, Bert Vaux, Assistant Professor of Linguistics at Harvard, asked members of the LINGUIST List about expressions for this weather phenomenon (he called it a sunshower, a lovely name, which I’ve never heard but which I’m told is common in the US, Canada, Australia and New Zealand, and also in parts of Britain, though—oddly enough—it appears in few dictionaries). He was told that similar sayings or proverbs exist in a surprising number of languages. A great many of them have animal associations, often to do with marriage (or, as one respondent commented, that activity for which the word marriage may be considered a suitable euphemism).

In Arabic, it seems the term is “the rats are getting married”, while Bulgarians prefer to speak of bears doing so; Mr Vaux was told that in Hindi it becomes “the jackal’s wedding”; in Calabria, it is said that “when it rains with sun, the foxes are getting married”, for which there’s a similar phrase in Japanese; Koreans refer to tigers likewise; there’s even an English dialect term, “the foxes’ wedding”, known from the south west, it seems. However, in Polish, the saying is that “when the sun is shining and the rain is raining, the witch is making butter”.

Several languages refer to devils instead, as in Turkish: “the devils are getting married”. There’s a well-known version in the American South, at least among older people: “The devil’s behind his kitchen door beating his wife with a frying pan”, usually shortened just to “The devil’s beating his wife”.

With so many examples from different languages, it is certainly possible that there’s also an Irish version, though I haven’t come across one.

However, I am baffled as to why and how such phrases should have arisen. There’s clearly a common association that is understood by widely divergent language communities, so it seems to be something at a level below that of superficial culture. But what is it?


More questions than answers...?!?

"The only thing that overcomes hard luck is hard work."

- Harry Golden


"A good education is not so much one which prepares a man to succeed in the world, as one which enables him to sustain a failure."

- Bernard Iddings Bell

When I have a house I would want it to be like this! I just absolutely love the bright, beautiful, amazing, colors!

I watched Mission Impossible III and enjoyed it a lot! There were just too many cool things about this movie that it was exciting to watch! I don’t watch too many action flicks but I am glad I did this one! I still don’t like Tom Cruise!

Uneventful Sunday:
Woke up really REALLY late, ran to get flowers for my mom, had lunch, and went to work.
What an exciting day isn’t it!? I worked in the afternoon today and I enjoyed this more than working in the mornings! I might do this more often.

I keep forgetting that it’s only the second week of May and no wonder it has been raining most days. I keep thinking its June and every time it rains…..I keep thinking “It’s June…why the hell is it raining?”

I don’t understand why it is expected for a husband to give his wife a mother’s day gift? I think it should be children giving thanks to their mothers, not the whole world needing to give gifts to all women who have children! Hello! Your husband isn’t your child!

I really like watching this season of Apprentice…more than the other seasons. Probably because I have this inner competitive mode these past few months…so I like to see how the individuals compete with each other. I also love to see the group dynamics! Then I like to make comments about what each group did wrong. I had to do this paper for my interpersonal communication class on the movie “The Old Settler” with 4 other classmates. I absolutely hated it! After we completed our paper each of us had to write a paper on our interpersonal communications on this task. I went on and on about the show apprentice and how I would have probably been fired the first show. During the week or so we had to work on the paper no one totally got my ideas!! I would say something which I thought made absolute sense but everyone else was like “hmmm..I guess so…but let’s come up with something else.” It was so frustrating! I really don’t like teamwork…I like to be assigned a task and be left alone or I like to be the leader and be in a setting where I could develop my own ideas with my group members behind me. My Ideas!


I always thought that I would love to have a group…be in a group…but I just love to be left alone! Probably I get so attached to people that soon they become attached to me…and then I want to move away from this hold…or something of this nature! I don’t conform nor do I like the feeling that I need to conform. You could be in a group and not conform but then are you really in the group?

They are too beautiful!


Yea! I am done with all my finals! That was some semester! Went too fast and I am going to miss all the people I met and all my classes! I want to workout as much as possible during my time off, enjoy the little things that I didn’t have time to when I had classes, and cook! I want to make something very different…something I have never tried before. Oh yea…and slowly start studying for the next semester…






If you keep staring at it...it gets funnier!


Isn’t this a funny picture! I remember years ago I went to get a shot…just like this one! I was 8 years old and I was so confident that I wasn’t going to cry. Well, when the nurse put me on to a chair and started folding my sleeves back…I let out this huge scream!! I cried “bloody hell!” There were few other kids around my age sitting in the waiting area…and they all started to cry too because they heard me...probably thought I was being tortured! I didn’t stop crying at all…I just continued on and on until the nurse was done!

horoscope for today..

Right on the dot....????


Gemini -
Your world is changing, dear Gemini, both internally and externally. You feel a need to broaden your horizons. You contemplate a move to a new neighborhood or a trip to a faraway land. The people in your life will change as a result of this. You are about to embark on a new phase of your life, and these new friends will act as able guides.

Random Thoughts...

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Accessorizing it’s so tough! I mean you don’t want to feel like you are wearing everything in your jewelry box yet you want to wear your favorite pieces. So I admire all those who could accessorize with much jewelry yet look like you are not over the top!


I went and had McDonalds the other day after a long time. This time I actually sat at McDonalds and had a meal, I don’t get how some people could have McDonalds every week! It was such an unsatisfactory lunch! I’ll stick with my subway.

Talking about food..........

Few days ago I was mowing the backyard and something so disgusting happened! I stepped on poop. I swear it smelled just like human poop! I was running all around the yard screaming “Oh God! It’s not dog poop it’s human poop!” “Help Me!!!” It was all on my shoes, pants, and back of my legs.
I thought I was tough when it came to disgusting things but…when you have poop on your legs and swear it’s human poop…then you’ll really know wheather you are tough or not.

I became this little girl that was running around yelling “Help Me! Someone!!”

But it’s hard to think that a human could have actually done something like that in our yard…but you never know what kind of weirdoes are out there. I am hoping it’s just a dog!

I thought I liked the rain…but two days nonstop rain…is not really fun. I couldn’t go running…I tried to for the first day…but I didn’t want to be sick especially on my final week. I was tired this weekend at work…just staring at the rain…

moments are lost....

I just checked my grade for this major paper I had to write. We had so much time to do it …but if you know me well…I waited till’ the last minute to even think about it. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! So I knew the grades were posted today and I hesitantly checked it so maybe it’ll give me some time to beg my professor for a rewrite. But guess what everyone!! I got a high B! Yea! It was a tough paper overall and I just can’t believe with how much time I dedicated to it…I got a solid B!
So its showing up…doing something…the half the glory?

My karate class finished…and I miss all my girls from that class! Having a great group to laugh throughout the semester…was so much fun!!! We helped each other out and provided encouragement…which I needed badly!! I miss them!

running....

I am so tired…………………and barely could walk…
I started running around the neighborhood for the past few nights. I got a great deal on a MP3 player few weeks ago and finally got some music on it so I have been using that as a distraction when I run. Especially when I am listening to Tamil music…I am so engrossed in what the meaning of the song is…that I completely get lost in it. I want to figure out every sentence of some of my Tamil songs..! There is really no chance of this with my Korean songs…
The first night I ran for 1 hour. That night I didn’t bring my cell phone with me so my dad called and left a message asking me which block I was on…while my mom told my sister “I am not concerned about Tharsi…since she took self-defense (ohh isn’t my mom cute…and the confidence she has in me.!!!)..So since that night I have my MP3 in my pocket and my cell phone in my hands! What a way to run! I am hooked on technology!

Yea to running!
Here is the song I been listening to the most...the movie was okay..the first half was good.

More on this Later. Great Song!

Korean Drama- Full House

*Remember that*!

Today the group that I went to New York City with got together for the last time. We all had to make some kind of artistic project that reflected a focus about our trip! It was definitely fun to get together, share jokes, and bizarre stories that happened on the trip. Few of the smaller groups have their own little inside jokes that only they could laugh at. My small group consists of 3 other people and we sure do have our own…”REMEMBER THAT..*wink*”…look.


A Friday was our last full day in NYC before we had to catch our flight on Saturday afternoon! So 4 of us knew this was our last night and needed to let loose. That Friday my friend and I took the taxi to Chinatown and one of our friends called to tells us we should go to a club later that night! I barely go to clubs in Minnesota but what’s a NYC trip without clubbing.

The four of us managed to meet at our hotel at 11:30 p.m. after we did our final shopping and whatnot. We got to the streets (city that never sleeps…so imagine the streets…I mean full of activity…as it was noon). Unfortunately we took the taxi from our hotel without thinking about what we were wearing. Of the group…my friend and I were the most dressed up…(I had heels on which became unbearable at about 4:30 A.M. )so we could get into any clubs but our two guy friends had old tennis shoes on…so there was no way to get into the “dress code” clubs.

We weren’t shy…and we stopped and asked other club goers…streets full of them…where we could go clubbing. Some laughed at us about our tennis shoes but most were really nice about letting us know where to go.

After a few taxi rides we finally got in line at this club… For some reason…some scary, big, did I say scary looking guy found out we were from Minnesota. So the entire time we were waiting in line this guy just kept making fun of Minnesotans and I kept telling my friends…let’s go somewhere else…I don’t feel like getting in any kind of trouble… with this SCARY guy.
But nope…Minnesotans don’t give up…do we now…so I hesitantly paid $25 at the door and went in.

The club was amazing, fun people, wild people, and loud people!!! There were about four floors, each had their own themes!

IT WAS THE BEST TIME I HAD! We had a mutual understanding that all four of us were going to stick together. I think we danced like we had something to prove…that people were copying what we were doing! We were jumping around in our little circle…with our hands up… for 10 minutes and before I knew it the whole room was doing what we were doing!

We knew that we needed to leave NYC in less than a day so we wanted to get everything out of that city…and in someway we were using the dance floor to let go and take it all in at the same time. We needed to go back to our everyday lives…and NYC will eventually become a dream…this moment will become a dream.

We didn’t get back to the hotel till’ 5:30 A.M. (my feet were numb from all the dancing…) and at 8:00 A.M. needed to turn the keys in for our hotel room. What a night/Morning!!!

We did a lot of “REMEMBER THAT ” looks today…and I am glad I have this memory/experience with only three others.

The best things are unplanned.










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9/11



Pictures of people who worked in the towers...family members looking for them days after 9/11...




Picture taken on top of the Empire State Building.

MNIKSS

My Name is Kim Sam Soon!

The past few weeks I been crazy about this Korean Drama...MY NAME IS KIM SAM SOON! It is just a fabulous, funny, little drama!

Synopsis

"Kim Sam Soon (SS) is a 29 years old, fat, pastry chef, who has just lost her job and her boyfriend on Christmas Eve. She has all the insecurities of a woman grazing 30. With yet another failed relationship, SS scrambles desperately to rebuild her career and her love life.

SS manages to find a job at "Bon Appetite" restaurant when she gets acquainted with the owner of the restaurant, Hyun Jin Heon (JH). JH is young, handsome but aloof and cold.

JH is the only son of a hotel chain owner. Although born with a silver spoon, fate had dealt JH with a hard hand. Three years ago, a fatal car accident, where JH was the driver, resulted in the death of his elder brother and sister-in-law; and at the very same time his girlfriend of 5 years left him for her studies in the US. JH had to endure both physical and mental pain to overcome his problems and rebuild his life. The death defying experience left JH scarred as he stops believing in love and happiness.

Due to a moment of convenience, both SS and JH ended up signing a dating contract, where SS will receive KRW 50 mio (which she needed to redeem her family house) and in turn she will pretend to be JH's girlfriend to fend off his mother's endless efforts to get him match made and married.

When JH's ex-girlfriend returns to seek reconciliation; SS realizes that she has fallen for JH, and their contractual relationship gets complicated."

Bridget Jones of South Korea

**Thank goodness for Subtitles! ***

Live, Live, Live, Create, Create, Create!

etsy!

I am getting so obsessed with this site! Etsy-Your place to buy & sell all things handmade. What creativity! Fascinating/cute little things that I just can’t believe people are making! I could be on the site for hours…which I am pretty sure my summer vacation will consist of! I signed up for my own store online. The name of the store Tharsica …well, I like my name…what can you say!

I am hoping to learn a few little things this summer when I’ll have more time and then put it up. There has to be something in this head or rather my heart/soul…that will make something beautiful!

little thoughts..for this huge world...

Isn't life just wonderful!
So it looks like I am faced with some changes...Actually a lot of changes for the rest of the year!
I always wanted changes...And I guess it has come.
But when I think about it...I wonder if I fully appreciated just my "boring, predictable, cozy, life
that thankfully I came to everyday!

Had to give a presentation in my class the other day. I was a little nervous when I got up in front that I didn't
tell all the things I wanted to about the topic I was covering. Just when I was getting comfortable
in front of the class...I realized I was on the last slide on my PowerPoint...and heard the applause from my classmates!
I wanted to restart and give the best presentation...the one that I prepared..
but I guess things don't work like that...do they?
You get your chance..sometimes just once...and you better make the best of it...
Can't restart?

waiting for the next opportunity... I guess...